Pumpkin Time

When I told Doug I was heading out to the pumpkin farm, he said “don’t overdo it.” Which made me smile, because there’s a huge gap between my idea of overdoing it and his idea of overdoing it. Wells Pumpkin Farm is far too rich a resource to be denied. I had a base of Baby Boos and Jack Be Littles raised in my own garden, but they needed company. Wells Farm came through, with two little gourds that looked a lot like figs. 

A big flat Cinderella white pumpkin was completely irresistible, but would have looked lonely sitting on the hearth all by itself. I gave it some friends: a Royal Blue, which looks green, and a Warty Gnome, which looks like a warty gnome. The Cinderella was satisfyingly heavy to pick up, and rather gloriously sloshed with bits of mud and hay, adding to its autumn aura. I didn’t even have to wipe it down when I got it home, because the dirt and hay rubbed off on my flannel shirt.

But Cinderella is hardly the only story this time of year. The hall table tells a different one every time I look at it, but definitely more Halloween than happily ever after. It’s pretty dark in that hallway, but another nice warty little orange guy and a green one with white stripes brightened it right up.

Then I put out a skeletal creature with a toothy grin to darken things back down. All the pumpkins in his photo are fake, so no overdoing of the pumpkin farm was involved. Overdoing of craft shops and Halloween pop-up stores, maybe yes.

This American Tondo had great color shifts, and a super-beefy stem amusingly out of proportion to its snug round shape. It seemed dignified and comical, both at once. Its name, too – and being into words as I am, I had to look that up. Its formal name is Tonda Padania, tonda being Italian for round, and Padania a valley in Italy. All pumpkins originate in the Americas, but this variety is said to have been developed in Italy. American Tondo could be a compromise, or an argument. 

But for truly wild shapes, a Turk’s Head, a Crown of Thorns, and an Autumn Wings are a lovely tableau. It makes me happy to see them there on the kitchen counter, bringing in some autumn to compensate for the fading out of the tomatoes. Goodbye BLT sandwiches; hello pumpkin pie.

Slow to Get the Message

So I looked out my window at this nice bucolic scene, the deer browsing among the fallen crabapples on the front lawn. Very peaceful and lovely. Then I noticed one of the deer kept chasing another one away. They usually shared quite amicably but I’d seen this before, and this was the time of year for it. The chaser was the lead doe, and the chasee was a young fellow with just the first, nubby suggestions of coming antlers on his forehead. A button buck. She’d chase him off a short distance, he’d come back, she’d chase him off again, over and over. She was determined. I pictured thought bubbles over their heads: “Hey Mom it’s me” from the button buck, and “You’ve got those things on your head, get out” from the doe. It makes me very sad for him, but I guess this is how deer prevent inbreeding. 

It’s hard to think of winter coming, with the weather as warm as it’s been through September. It’s been giving me cognitive dissonance – on warm Michigan days I expect the sun to be up till 9:30 or 10:00 at night, but it’s setting by 7:30. No more saving yard work for after dinner: the warm weather keeps the tomatoes ripening, so I keep weeding them.

The zinnias and cosmos continue too, but as they get taller and taller, reaching for the retreating sun, they’ve started toppling over into the mini-pumpkin patch. That’s not a giant zinnia, it’s a wee pumpkin.

Rooting around under the tomatoes, I found another four-leaf clover. There’s one plant in here that turns them out fairly consistently, so I can be generous with what I wish on them. I used this one to wish good luck to young mister button buck.

September Deepening

All my favorite parts of the year are the transitions, but the one I love best is the shift from summer to fall. It demonstrates that change is good – an eternal spring would produce no harvests. Change ripens the tomatoes and fills out the Baby Boo and Jack Be Little pumpkins. 

It’s the time of year when a little red begins seeping into leaves, but clouds of white appear on the autumn clematis, drifts of blue on the asters, and rafts of yellow on the goldenrod. Like any change it looks confused, confusing, maybe even chaotic. This is fodder for my urge to organize things, my favorite part of that being the planning stage. What should I do to make things better for the next growing season? Which tomatoes and pumpkins did best, which flowers overgrew their beds and need relocating? As the flowers that are finished blooming set seeds, which should I let go and which should I clean up? 

My reaction to change is, lean into it. My Dad used to say, whatever happened look for the good that can come of it – or the good you can do with it. Ripeness, as Shakespeare says, is all.

Remembering Jean Burden

Every September first I think of Jean Burden. This was her birthday – September Morn, she would say, and laugh. She was a poet, an essayist, a teacher, and a cat lover, and would have been one hundred eleven years old today. This photo is from one of her lovely Christmas parties, probably when she was in her seventies. She died at ninety three. I met Jean soon after moving to Altadena, when I mailed off a set of poems to the poetry editor of Yankee magazine. Yankee, published in New Hampshire, was always in our Long Island house when I was growing up, and deep in its back pages was a single page of really good, serious poetry. I had a poem about a blizzard that I thought was a good fit, but it was aiming high to hope to be published where famous poets trod. I sent it off with a few others and a self-addressed, stamped reply envelope – that’s how it was done before email and websites – and waited to hear back. I was surprised and delighted when it arrived with a letter accepting “The Blizzard,” and the amazing news that Yankee’s poetry editor lived in Altadena! She also invited me to be in her poetry workshop. And that’s how I met Jean Burden.

Jean was in her sixties and I wasn’t thirty yet. She was elegant, knowledgeable, confident, and lived in a wonderful small house that might have been part of a farm before the suburb filled in around it. Though I’d had a few poems published in places of no particular distinction, I had never read my poems aloud to anyone. I was nervous and self-conscious but she was gracious and kind, setting out cookies and tea for the group. She could be brutal about the poems themselves, but not to the poets. One of her favorite expressions when someone was devoted to a line, or an image, that didn’t work, was. “Cut it out. You can always use it in another poem.” We had fun applying this to random words and situations, but really it was good advice. She helped us back up and look at our poems more objectively, checking what we said against what we meant. Sometimes a poem surprised you as you wrote it.

My copies of her first book of poems, Naked as the Glass, and her second, Taking Light From Each Other, bloom with bookmarks for my favorite poems. The pet care books she wrote under the pen name Felicia Ames are still available in used editions. Cats were her thing, as they are mine; another bond. My copy of her anthology of cat poems, A Celebration of Cats, is tattered from use. I still have a stuffed toy cat from her collection that was given to me after she died.

Her book Journey Toward Poetry is a good grounding in her approach. She says about her college studies with Thornton Wilder, that she was starved for “not only criticism, invaluable as this can be, but the contagion of enthusiasm for the art itself that can only be communicated by someone actively engaged in and committed to it.” Every year I got to meet, and sometimes have a seminar or dinner with, each wonderful poet invited to read at the Jean Burden Annual Poetry Series at Cal State LA. I felt the contagion of enthusiasm she wrote about, having Howard Nemerov advise me to take a line out of a poem, or even driving Maxine Kumin to the train station. Jean was long gone when her lovely little house was lost in the January fires, the porch where the cats sat, the small garden where they hunted, the rooms where poetry and laughter bounced off the walls. Whatever remained of it has been cleaned away, carted off to a landfill. It’s ready, now, for the next thing to happen there. 

Frassy Upside Down

I’ve never had a cat who liked to lie on her back as much as Frassy does. It’s not just in hot weather – she does this no matter the temperature in the house. 

Ballet?

Calisthenics? 

When she also turns her head upside down, it reminds me of how much I enjoyed that as a child – lying on my back looking at the ceiling, pretending it was the floor, picturing myself walking around on it, stepping up over the doorways. 

But what’s in Frassy’s mind when she looks at the world this way?

I put words in her mouth all the time, but my thoughts are unlikely to be hers. It’s hard enough to know what another human being is thinking – and yet we imagine we know the thoughts of our pets.

We especially imagine we know what our relationship to them is, what we mean to them, when all we can know is what they mean to us.

Frassy came up on my lap as I was writing this, and helped out. Or so I like to say. 

Late Summer Harvest

August is summer with a difference. Hours of daylight are still plentiful, but you can feel them drawing down, heading toward the equinox. No more strolling in the garden at ten p.m.; nights are cooler; but the harvest is rolling in. Tomatoes are coming into their own, and the squash – oh, the squash. I plant yellow crooknecks instead of zucchini so I have a chance to find them before they get as big as doorstops. Even so, they seem to have an amazing ability to be four inches long one day and twelve inches the next. I would be tempted to say they’re called squash because they squash anything else trying to grow near them, but being a wordsmith, of course I looked that up. One kind of squash comes from “quash,” a Middle English word now used chiefly for subpoenas, and the other from “asquutasquash,” from the Narragansett. It sounds like the Narragansett people taught the pilgrims how to eat some kind of squash they’d never seen before. 

The Narragansetts would also have had blueberries, a native North American fruit. I came across an argument online about whether the Indians called them “starberries,” but was unable to delve into it because AI kept changing “starberries” to “strawberries.” Thanks, but I’m well aware that no one calls blueberries strawberries.

The flowers that produce seeds instead of fruit are also hard at work generating harvest. The seed pods of my California poppies are so elegant, I have sometimes tried to preserve them. They’d look lovely in a dried flower arrangement but they always burst open, their goal achieved despite my desires.

My zinnias produce new flowers and ripe seedheads in equal numbers right up till frost. They’re a mainstay of my bouquets, so I was disturbed one morning to find the petals munched off of a few of them. I spent some time searching carefully for miscreant bugs in need of control, but none appeared. A bit later, looking out the kitchen window, I laughed to see the riddle resolved: it was a goldfinch, ripping seeds out of the still-petalled seedheads. The petals fell to the deck, where they soon turned an inconspicuous brown. The stems bent over when he landed on them, but not so as to interfere with his snack. The really funny thing was that I was looking right at him thinking he was a bright yellow Cut and Come Again zinnia blowing slightly in the breeze, until he moved enough to show the black stripe on his wing. He was gone before I could get a photo of him at it.

The Little Girls

All day I tried to write a blog post about my beautiful summer flowers, but all I can think about is the little girls swept away in the Texas floods. Summer was beautiful for them, too, swimming and canoeing, supported by the river and trusting in the goodness of life as children do. They slept, and the world changed. They woke to thunder, and the lurch of a power they never knew the river had. 

Those sweet, small lives. Not only the devastated families whose daughters were lost, but also those girls who survived, now have this experience engraved on their hearts. All the rest of us, no matter our politics or attitudes toward climate disasters, have hearts rent by their pain right now.

Meanwhile in Texas, they will face the question of blame. Blame is useful if, instead of poisoning regret and generating revenge, it is targeted toward solutions to the problems that fed the disaster in the first place. To have a child, the saying goes, is to have your heart walking around outside your body. All those girls, beautiful as summer flowers, leave many empty spaces behind them, and only memories to fill them in. I hope the families of Camp Mystic can find comfort and solace in remembrance.

More on the Milkweed

A few years ago I was given a seed packet of milkweed – the only host plant for monarch butterflies – to sow in the yard. A random milkweed plant would show up in my yard from time to time but they never established themselves, so I assumed I had poor milkweed habitat and forgot about the packet. Then, cleaning out a drawer in February, voila, the milkweed seeds reappeared. I doubted they were viable at that point, but I read on the envelope that they could be tossed out onto the snow in winter. So I did that.

Turns out the seed was plenty viable and the plants, now flourishing in full flower, are barging in on the hydrangeas, the chamomile, the sage, and even the pineapple mint and garlic chives. 

So, another lesson from the garden. Never underestimate the ability of life to overcome adversity, no matter how unfavorable the outlook or how dim the expectations. Here’s my milkweed standing up for the success of the beleaguered monarch butterflies. The odds don’t look great for butterflies right now, but the milkweed is voting for them. You go, milkweed.

Keep Trying

People are complicated, come from different backgrounds, and have different experiences, so there are many things to disagree about. Argument is a perfectly legitimate form of human communication. Violence is not, yet we seem to go there all the time. There are more sad news stories today than I can, or want to, recount. I went to the garden for solace and there I found the bleeding hearts still blooming. Bleeding hearts came to North America from China, where they’re called purse peonies. Different ways of looking at things.

I still have a few regular peonies, too. Earlier this month the large and beautiful peony garden in Ann Arbor was assaulted, hundreds of its innocent flowers cut off and thrown to the ground. Flyers left behind announced this as a political act but it looked like spite. Did someone really expect the fallen flowers would bring allies to their cause?

The garden is much better at forming alliances. Here’s a bumblebee visiting my baptisia, where she will use her weight to open the flower, something smaller bees can’t do. Baptisia and bumblebees have worked out a deal. No manifestos were created, no weapons fired, the bee presumably her own ambassador.

The milkweed, still in bud, has a deal with monarch butterflies. When it blooms they’ll pollinate it, and in return its leaves will supply munching monarch caterpillars with a poison that keeps predators away, an alliance of mutual benefit. Poison can be considered a weapon, but for the monarch the point is deterrence. There is no wisdom in the mutually assured destruction of having your predator die after it eats you. 

There’s certainly struggle in the garden. The ferns have moved in so far onto the path through the woods, I’m going to have to pull some out. But when I do I’ll transplant them to the front yard, under the pine trees. I expect they will thrive in the mulchy shade there, where the grass is unhappy. Plants, like people, have different needs, sometimes hard to figure out. The least we can do is try.

Shoulder Season

When I moved to Michigan I learned a new term — shoulder season. This being Ann Arbor and Brady Hoke’s football team being where it was then, I thought it meant crying on someone’s shoulder between sports seasons. I was fond of Brady Hoke and hoped he’d do better, because he said he’d walk to get to Michigan and that was how I felt about it. But now here I was, and as winter slid into a spring too warm for sweaters and too cold for shorts, the meaning of the term came clear to me: not on the main path; sloping off from one place to another; like the shoulder of a road. Transition. 

Here are my red poinsettias, out enjoying the sunlight that will slowly turn them green, a color they will keep until I bring them inside come fall, and daylight lessens, and they turn red again.

Here are violets in strong profusion, while morning glories in pots to either side are barely sprouting. The violets will wither in the coming heat, but the morning glories will move in and take over.

Here are yellow alliums and purple chives in bloom, while behind them milkweed has a long way to go before it flowers and feeds the monarch butterflies.

And here are Siberian iris spearing their way into a showy blue drift under the ornamental pear tree, whose flowers are already turning into fruit the deer will eat in August. Deer can be total pests but it’s strangely comforting that, despite my efforts at deterrence, they come back, resilient in the face of adversity. Fight the good fight, deer. I appreciate that more today than I ever have.